Are you comfortably numb?

Friday, December 17, 2004

No, I'm not dead...

...just haven't posted for ages. Haven't had time, energy or desire. Am fine though, worry not.

Will post properly again soon...

Bec x

Monday, December 13, 2004

I went in a limo, I'm cool

Yes... it's true. It was fun. I felt famous. Well, sort of. I went to my friend's birthday and she rented a limo and we all went down to London in it. Nice. But very tiring, I wasn't really up to it. Being a girl is great though - you get so many drinks bought for you! I went up to the bar in the club at one point and some randomer offered to buy me one, I think he thought he was going to get my number or something but I just said 'cheers' and walked off with said drink - nice.

Feeling a bit down tonight for reasons I can't go into. You may question me personally if you so desire. Prayer would be appreciated, mainly for patience, perserverance, and selflessness.

Stuff at the Haven is really getting going.. they now want me to think about putting together a presentation on relationships for local youth groups... they think that cos I'm young I'm the best person to do all this stuff... I don't know. I think I'm totally not ready to do something like that, given my track record, both recently and ever... I mean I know God uses our weakness but surely we have to have proven character on a subject to talk about it? A bit daunting. I can always say no but I don't want to cop out just cos I'm going out of my comfort zone. Anyway I don't have to decide before I come back from Brazil.

Work is rubbish too, my boss is whinging because apparently no one does enough overtime. Screw that, get more staff. I mean, seriously. I'm doing 2 shifts overtime this week and he was whinging to someone else about how people aren't willing to do extra work. Why should we even HAVE to do extra work! It's like he thinks the rest of our lives are blank spaces. But the people and customers are still fun so I can put up with it. :)

On a more positive note, got my accommodation application form from Birmingham today! Well exciting. Gonna be a mission working out what all the finance forms are about though... ahhh!

Well must go. One good thing about the run-up to Christmas is mince pies I must say. Although my idea of boycotting all the church services is not going to be popular I can tell already!

Night night

Tired Bec x

Now playing: Moby - Porcelain, and the sound of the washing machine

Friday, December 10, 2004

The spirit

So I said a while ago I would explain why Nick's Bible Study on the spirit was so good, so I will attempt to here.

It focused first on the difference between spirit and body, and also on how the Bible's use of the words spirit and soul is interchangable. We also started off by looking at the 3 views of the nature of man in terms of his spirit, soul and body (triochotomy, dichotomy and monism, of which the latter is Biblical). We then did a quick paperchase of how the words spirit and soul are used, in what contexts.

What I found most amazing about the study was...

1) Thinking about how unnatural the reign of death is. We were not supposed to be like this! We are constantly dying, the actual extinguishing of life is just an 'extreme expression of death'.

2) Death is not a reversal of existence, it is only a reversal of life. I found this amazing. I just hadn't really thought about it before. It's such a contrast to the worldview found in secular society, particularly with the issues of abortion and euthanasia being chucked around like hot potatoes at the moment. Particularly coming from the angle of abortion, it made me acutely aware that even if you kill a baby in the womb its existence continues. Scary, and serious. The sanctity of life is so much more than that. Even a fertilised egg, if one believes in life from conception, if killed by the morning after pill (and versions of the ordinary pill), can carry on existing.

3) Another reason death is so unnatural is because it is unnatural for us to be without bodies, which we are for a while when we die, until we gain our resurrected new bodies. This makes sense of why death is still a horrible thought (aside from the pain or whatever) even if we are Christians.

4) Death came into the world and rules beacause of sin. Spiritual death is an inability to respond to God or to see his glory. This part gave me a whole new insight into the crossing from death into life. It makes so much more sense now... even though our bodies are still rotting away and reigned by death (which in turn explains why we still have to fight with sin! See Romans 7) our spirit is alive and has been set free from the reign of death in order to respond to God and acknowledge his glory. And this is why we are going to have new bodies - so no part of us will be subject to the reign of sin!

Hallelujah! The whole study just opened up my perspectives so much... it's so easy to get caught up in which carpet looks best or which earrings we should wear... forget that, the spiritual realm is so much bigger and REALER and more IMPORTANT! So we should really start living in the good of this... I know myself that I have a long way to go and the sinful desires of the flesh are all too powerful. What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body of death? Thanks be to God - through Jesus Christ our Lord!

Wednesday, December 08, 2004

Left islet to head east - going north is vital (9)

That is today's cryptic crossword clue. Answers on a virtual postcard please.

Big news of this week: purchasing Ricky Gervais - Politics and Love Actually on DVD. Had to buy them from Smiths, unfortunately. They were doing a 'deal' of Buy 2, Save £5. However, the original prices were £16.99 and £17.99 respectively which I think is ridiculous, so the actual deal boiled down to something resembling, "Buy 2, get the price down to something which is just slightly exorbitant rather than absolutely extortionate". I went next door to Woollies where I found the same 2 DVDs in a deal of Buy One, Get One 1/2 price. Infinitely better! But then I picked up the Love Actually DVD and it said 'Sorry, this item is temporarily out of stock'. My need for the DVD was fairly urgent so I was forced to submit to Smiths, where I restrained myself from commenting on Woolworth's superiority.

Ricky Gervais, live, is absolutely hilarious. It's funnier than The Office, although probably not as clever or well observed - The Office is a success primarily because of its cringeworthyness. Gervais has no boundaries in humour. Nazis, gays, disability and 3rd world poverty are all on the agenda, and each are tackled with seemingly no political correctness. I know people who have watched his stand-up shows and come away thinking 'he's just a complete GIT', but this is missing the point, to put it mildly. I suppose it would be very easy to miss the point if you weren't very finely tuned to this type of humour, but if you are, it is genius. Gervais effectively ridicules the very viewpoints he appears to endorse simply by his over-the-top ranting. For example:

"I've heard that people in sweat shops who only earn a few pence an hour could actually buy back something they made, if they worked for about 10,000 years. The thing is, they don't WANT to! See... LAAAZY."


*spiel about Africa gaining independence*

"But, in the 80s, we get a phonecall... Thatcher answers.
'Hi, it's Africa here'.
'Yeah what do you want?'
'Um, well, we're all starving and that'.
'Oh... well you shoulda thought about that, before you wanted INDEPENDENCE.'


"Drought! I'll give you a drought! In the long hot summer of 1976, we had a HOSEPIPE ban in Reading!"

On first appearances it actually looks like Gervais is indeed a racist, homophobic, Jingoistic, git... but he's just taking the mick out of people who really are like that, as is shown by the cheeky smile he gives the audience from time to time in case they're starting to get worried. I suppose one could say if you don't understand irony, don't watch it. In fact don't go near it.

The man is also a superb actor. Stand-up comedians are often blessed with an ability to mime actions and facial expressions very well, and Gervais is no exception. Talking about Hitler confessing to Nietzsche that he's killed 6 million Jews based on Nietzsche's writings, he acts Hitler like a naughty schoolboy, which sounds completely vulgar and sick as I write, but is actually genius comedy. If anyone doubted that his Brent character was the result of skilful acting, they will not when they watch this.

Although some may think the issues he tackles are a little near to the bone (ahem), for many it will come as a breath of fresh air. In the PC mad world (and by that I don't mean everyone owns a computer) we live in, it's good to see someone who has no fear when it comes to talking about the hot potatoes. It's a DVD truly worth watching - better than his debut Animals show - and owning, indeed, even if you have to purchase it from W.H. Smith. And of course aside from the sick 'political humour', he's just darn good at the observational stuff. For example, when talking about the morals found in children's nursery rhymes:

"I mean, what's the moral of Humpty Dumpty? IF YOU'RE AN EGG, DON'T SIT ON A WALL?!"

So there you go. Ricky Gervais is the don. Buy it now. And buy Animals too, it's funny. And when Science comes out, buy that too. Actually I might even go and see it! OOooooh yes.

Anyway I'm bored of writing now. Must go, have busy day! Will update on real life soon.


Now playing: Eminem - Soldier (why?)

Thursday, December 02, 2004

Just another manic... Wednesday, Thursday, Friday...

This week is soo busy. I'm amazed I have time to post on here as well as do everything else, but I'm a girl with her priorities sorted. Just a quick summary of these 3 days:

Wednesday: prepare Zig Zag talk, lunch at McQs to discuss said talk, go to Warden Park CU, continue preparing ZZ talk whilst cooking dinner, eat dinner, go to Bible Study.

Thursday: gym, work 12-3, finish preparing talk, do ZZ, give people lifts home, go to Sainsburys, have dinner, go to C's house for deep spiritual talks

Friday: go to McQs for pastoral guidance ;) work 12-3, go to pregnancy crisis centre 3:30-5, eat, work 6-close.


Still, I do like being busy. The Bible Study last night was a-m-a-z-i-ng. Nick was answering a question about the spirit and I don't have time to elaborate now but I will do cos it was JOLLY GOOD!

My talk went fine today as well. They knew all the things I got wrong- relief. One amusing moment:

Me: Does anyone actually know what a manger is?

Child: It's like a cot but with hay in it.


Oh the farce that Christmas is!

Bye. x

Now playing: some crappy version of Friday I'm In Love which has weasled its way onto my playlist!

Wednesday, December 01, 2004

Classical music is the best music in the world

I've just spent a profitable morning in bed preparing my Zig-Zag talk. It's on, can you guess? Yes - Christmas. I mean, Jesus' birth. Two entirely different things. I have to do the one about the shepherds. Sounds like a F.R.I.E.N.D.S. episode (it just occurred to me, does anyone know what the letters are supposed to stand for? *Bec spends the next 10 minutes trying to come up with possible explanations...*... Actually, you guys could use the comments to show us your suggestions! For Rachel Is Evidently Not Doing Speed?). Anyway, I was trundling along in my preparation, thinking, how on earth can I make this into a story that the kids will sit up and listen to, rather than spend the 10 minutes going, "I DID THIS AT SCHOOL! I KNOW A SONG!" When I was hit by a metaphorical lightning bolt of inspiration. I will TELL THE STORY WRONG! Yes, I will tell the story deliberately wrong, and their task is to make a silly noise (I haven't yet decided on the noise yet. Suggestions are welcome, apart from if you are male) when they realise I'm saying something that's not in the actual story. For example:

"So Mary and Joseph got to Bethlehem, and they found a massive posh hotel where there was LOADS of room for them to stay!"

And later-

"So an angel went to all the important people in the government and who ruled the country and told them about Jesus being born."

And they will hopefully say, 'Nooooooooooooooo Bec, you're silly' or something to that effect, and thus the surprises in the story will be revealed.

This could go horribly wrong, in that they're all very little, and might not know the story that well, but I'm hoping I'll choose such obviously wrong things that it will work. We shall see. I'm going round the McQs to chat it over with Sarah so hopefully she'll tell me if it's a disastrous plan.

I'm listening to Albinoni's Adagio for Strings in G minor right now, it's amazing. The music just sort of washes over you in this beautiful wall of sound. It reminds me of September 11th, because on that evening me, Dad and a couple of other people from church went to see a performance in the Igreja Presbiteriana, and this was one of the pieces they played.

Oooh the dulcet tones of Albinoni have just faded into the dulcet tones of Radiohead. Surprisingly suitable to the tone, given it's Talk Show Host. There's something quite surreal about classical music, in that you can almost drift out of the world you're in and be transported to a whole new plane, where communication is quavers and expression is a crescendo. It is quite astounding the amount that can be conveyed through music, without a single word. Although Thom Yorke is doing a good job of communicating something right now.

Right, I must go. Ta-ta.

Now playing: Radiohead - Life Is Depressing, I Want to Die, they're going to GET YOU